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Do anyone live here any more?
Hello?
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[Fri - 03/23/07 - 8:45pm] |
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I say it again.
STILL NOT DEAD!
Call me though.
Please?
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[Fri - 11/3/06 - 10:08pm] |
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At least the people online think I look like someone cute...
( lookie here bitches... )
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[Thu - 09/14/06 - 7:22pm] |
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I'm not dead.
And no, I haven't moved across country with my lover no one knew I had.
I'm just not around the 'net, okay?
But I have a cellular telephone device if you want me.
So call me.
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| Brent, handing over BJ: "Jen babe, give me a kiss. Alright, now hold this." |
[Sun - 08/13/06 - 3:46pm] |
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peeling back, hurt shoulder |
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Things with work have have been crazy, but that's nothing new.
The work or go to school problem has been attacking me again. Harder this time. And I'm losing it.
Pete Wentz is the Don of the Scene.
Had a family reunion yesterday at the lake. Family that was there included:
Aunt Pat (dad's oldest sister), and her three kids.
Donna who has: Michelle(16), Chelle's boyfriend Kenny(16) Nicole(13), Abbey(11), and Holly(9)
Debbie and her husband Scotty who have: Stephanie(13), Steph's friend Val(also 13), Mason(5), Carson(3), and Mechayela(almost 2)
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Denise and her husband Brent who brought: Sunny(10), and BJ(4 months), only two of thier SIX.
And we all fit at our tiny ass cottage. And we swam and played in the sun. Then Denise and her husband flagged down JekSki Boy, who my dad seems to think I have a crush on or something. His grandparents live on the lake, and he's there almost every weekend with his parents and two sisters to jetski. They flagged him in and asked if he'd take Val, Steph's 13 year old friend for a ride.
His name is Tyler, he's 20, and now Denise thinks we should get married or something. And so does my dad. F$#@$#@$&.
I feel like I don't quite belong with the adults in the group cause my cousins are 41, 31, and 27. I'm 19, and Donna's oldest is only three years younger than me. SO I hung with BJ all day. Which unfortunately made my mom decided she's all of a sudden on the grandkids wagon.
Have to have a husband for kids. I don't want to be like Denise and Debbie and have kids before I'm married. Not that they didn't turn out alright and have good families, but I just don't want the hassle that I've heard they went through.
Plus, I'd have to be having to have sex to have kids, and I'd need a boyfriend to be having sex. So there.
Kendra turns 21 tomorrow. Which means Keith's birthday is coming in a few weeks, then Amanda, then me. Whoshit, I'm not gonna be a teenager anymore. And then I have to think:
What the fuck am I gonna do for my birthday this year!?!?
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[Fri - 07/14/06 - 2:18am] |
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I totally just got done Panic!ing At The Disco.
Well, at the Deltaplex in GR at least.
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| hey! hey! do that brand new thing! |
[Fri - 07/7/06 - 1:13am] |
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sore on left only |
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I totally let some woman named Heather put new holes in my head earlier.
And only the LEFT side hurts(stupifuckingleftside)
I ran into Herbey and Ashley Cater at Dennys on the 4th. I hate that I suck at being peoples friends. I have to make myself call them both very very soon.
And Kaite B. And Mike. And Kita more.
I wish Craigen wasn't moving home. Stupid boys being homesick and emo and living in Tennessee.
I saw Nic. Yeah, the "I would've picked you" guy. Never going near Haslett again.
LastFM is my new favorite website after Myspace, LJ, IMDB, and Fandomination.net.
Yeah, something else here cause that seems to be the format.
I'm this>> [_] close to losing my job.
Very soon my Grandma is going to be very disappointed in me.
I still don't know who or what I am. Big fucking surprise.
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| the approaching airballoons |
[Sun - 06/4/06 - 10:21pm] |
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The show on Friday was more than awesome.
However since then I've been having some serious issues with myself. So I decided I'm going to take a vacation from people and activity and focus on sitting here by myself. Obviously that doesn't include work, but you'll seriously have to pay me to get me out of the house for the next few days.
Apparently this is what a nervous breakdown feels like. For some reason I thought it would include more anger and less tears. At least it doesn't have anything to do with Craigen.
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| "I've..." & Alexander |
[Wed - 04/26/06 - 10:42pm] |
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I've been listening to the whirl of the computer fan for way too long.
I've been wish and hoping I didn't have to do this.
I've always wanted to make my friends happy, but back the fuck off.
I've missed his face and don't wanna see it again or I'll miss it more.
I've hated these words, those words, and ALL words.
I've hated people I wish I could forget.
I've hated people I wish I hadn't forgotten.
I've hated that I can't forget.
I've listened to too many excuses and never got enough in return.
I've tried to not be selfish, but it's my fucking turn.
I've wanted to have somone to tell this all to.
I've hated that he packed up and left in an effortless 'fuck you'.
I've made excuses and dodged people, but always with reason.
I've always had an excuse, but I don't have to give you one, I choose to keep it to myself.
My mom and Amanda just won't leave it be.
"Invite him in."
"I'll make dinner for you two."
"I wanna meet him."
"I wanna see a picture."
But it hurts if other people have a memory of him. He's my best friend, and that's none of anybody's business. I usually want my friends to get along with each other, but I've started to realize that it can't always happen. So forgive me for wanting to keep Alex to myself. I might talk about him, I might be angry with him, and I might talk about how much I love him but he's MINE and if I don't want you to meet him, you wont. It hurts to have pictures around of people that you don't get to see often, and I don't want to make myself emo about him. So I'm not taking any pictures, that's why I don't have his phone number in my cell phone, that's why no one has met him. I don't want someone else to know who he is. He's MINE, and no one seems to understand that. With Ian it was different, I wanted the approval of my friends, but he was just a spineless coward, much like I've turned myself into. But Alex is MINE and I don't want anyone else to have him.
SO leave me alone.
He's MINEMINEMINEMINEMINEMINEMINEMINEMINEMINE.
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| Death Bed: The Bed That Eats |
[Tue - 04/25/06 - 12:27am] |
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The Comedians Of Comedy are absolutly hysterical.
But Zach Galifianakis wasn't there which made me sad.
Lots of events have passed, maybe I'll write on them later. Maybe I won't.
Lots of events coming.
I wish I could be a cold hearted bitch and not fucking care. If he wants to kill himself so badly, maybe he should just fucking get it right.
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| falling in love again....da de dee dum da de dum.... |
[Thu - 04/13/06 - 10:23am] |
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So this mornning I was in the bathroom at school and realized yet another way that girls are better than boys.
We can multi-task while peeing.
Do you know of any guys that can pee at the same time they blow their nose?
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| face down in the parking lot |
[Tue - 04/11/06 - 8:12pm] |
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SO Kendra and I were up and at Best Buy this morning before most normal people were even out of bed.
But we got our new HTL, along with the other rocker kid there, and Lansing is sold out as far as I know.
Such indie bitches we are.
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| disaster? |
[Thu - 04/6/06 - 10:54am] |
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I wish I could think about something other than him.
I thought I was over this...
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